A New Version of Me: Finding Purpose Through the Unknown with Beth Brown

In this inspiring episode of Stories From A Woman's Heart, Host DeAnna Byrd sits down with Beth Brown for a powerful conversation about leaning on unwavering faith during life's most terrifying unknowns.

Beth opens up about two profound seasons of crisis that tested everything she believed. First, she shares the heart-wrenching journey of facing a sudden, severe medical mystery involving her young daughter—a situation that left doctors searching for answers and forced Beth to rely entirely on desperate prayer and divine intervention resulting in a miraculous healing.

The conversation then shifts to Beth's own harrowing story of survival. Confronted with a sudden, debilitating health crisis that changed her daily life overnight, Beth discusses the immense physical and spiritual toll of prolonged illness and chronic pain. Through disappointment, isolation, and spiritual trials, Beth reveals what it takes to grieve your past self and step into a "new version" of who God has called you to be.

Tune in to hear how holding onto the promises of God—even when the outcome is entirely uncertain—can lead to unexpected healing and a deeply renewed purpose.

What You Will Hear in This Episode:

• A powerful testimony of a mother's steadfast prayer when faced with a terrifying medical crisis and zero answers.
• The reality of navigating spiritual disappointment and the cautious journey toward finding true, authentic community.
• An honest look at the mental and spiritual battle of surviving a multi-layered physical crisis that leaves you entirely dependent on God.
• What it means to embrace a new version of yourself and find divine purpose even when dealing with daily chronic pain.
• Beth highlights the importance of her involvement with Echo TV and the healing power of genuine, loving fellowship when you feel you have lost yourself.

Transcript

DeAnna 0:08

Hello, all of our listeners out there. I'm so glad that you're with us today. And I have a wonderful guest with me. Her name is Beth Brown. Beth, I want to welcome you today. I'm so glad that you're here and want to share your story with us and with all the beautiful women out there. How are you doing? I'm doing good. Are you excited about being here today? Oh, absolutely.

Beth 0:27

I am very excited.

DeAnna 0:29

So I want you to tell a little bit about yourself.

Beth 0:31

I am a mother of two, married to a wonderful husband. My oldest daughter is married to a wonderful man. And I have two sweet little dogs, Todd and Jasper, which I love. I'm a dog person. I am recently retired from working 14 years in the school district. And I live in Minnefee County, which I'm very proud of. We got connected through our friend, mutual friend Evie, which she is amazing. Evie and I have been friends for many years, and she actually was my oldest daughter's teacher. Oh yeah. Okay. Yes, my daughter, my oldest daughter is hearing impaired. And EB was her teacher in school, all through school and stuff. And I'm happy to say that Eevee has been the perfect role model for my daughter. I couldn't be prouder of her for that. And she has helped her become a woman that is very self-assured. She is amazing. She actually is teaching special education in high school now, and she just recently got her master's.

DeAnna 1:29

I know that Evie's very special. Evie was a guest on our podcast, and she has such a beautiful story. She's just one of those rare gems that you encounter in life. We all have a story to tell. But there is somebody out there that's going through the very same thing you are, and they may not know how to handle what they're going through or how to get through. They may not even have a relationship with God. And when they hear your story and how you've gotten through those things, then it's going to make an impact on them. I can't wait to hear your story.

Beth 1:56

I can't wait to tell you.

DeAnna 1:57

So you just go ahead and share.

Beth 1:59

All right. Well, since we're talking about my daughter, my oldest daughter, let me tell you a little quick thing of how God works in mysterious ways and works for the best. Yes. So my daughter, she's 25 now, when she was six years old, one day she got it and she was crying and stuff and said, Mom, I can't walk. I can't walk at all. And I'm like, Oh, really? Did you sleep wrong? You know, it's like she's a little kid. So then she was like, She's like, No, Mom, I really can't walk. So we take her to the hospital and they say, We don't know what's wrong. When they tell you you don't know what's wrong and your child can't walk, and then she's in pain, what do you do? So then they run you through the gamut. They tell you first they told us she had cancer. Then they said, Well, it's not that. And they run tests constantly and and they can't give you an answer. So for six months, we carried my daughter everywhere. She didn't get to enjoy herself. You know, it's hard on the child being sick.

DeAnna 2:49

Yes.

Beth 2:50

And it's hard on a parent with a sick child.

DeAnna 2:52

Oh, I can imagine.

Beth 2:54

But the unknown is way way worse. It's way worse. So I can't get any answer from a medical doctor, but I know a great healer. Yes. I I know a great healer. Amen. Amen. So all I could do and all I knew to do was to pray. I just prayed and prayed and prayed. And one night I laid down and I prayed the same prayer I'd prayed a million times. God, just help my child.

DeAnna 3:18

Right.

Beth 3:18

Just help my child, heal my child.

DeAnna 3:20

Right.

Beth 3:20

I need her to be healed. I laid down and I went to sleep and I had a dream. I was out in an ocean, but the ocean was rough and the seas were going. And then my child was on the beach standing and she was yelling, Come and get me, mom. Come and get me. And I was fighting and fighting and fighting. And I'm like, God, help me get to her. I need to get to her. And then there was fire in between this. And I was like, Lord, I can't do it alone. Help me. And when I prayed that and I begged God for help, then the water went silent, the fire went away, and I was able to get to her. When I looked down, I was just in a big flowy dress. Wow. And I said, God, thank you. Thank you, Lord. I want you to know how grateful I am because I know you're gonna heal my daughter. I know you are. So it wasn't two days later. My daughter got out of bed and she was hopping around and came through and she's like, Mom, mom. I'm like, what happened? Are you okay? She said, I'm fine. I'm fine, mom.

DeAnna 4:16

Praise the Lord. Praise the Lord.

Beth 4:17

And I knew instantly that it was God's word. Yes. So from then on, I've never worn pants. I have been pants-free. So it took a little bit of you getting used to because before you kind of caught me in a dress. I was not comfortable at all. But now it's I don't give it a second thought.

DeAnna 4:36

That's awesome. Is there a scripture that come to your mind or is there something that God just after that dream and that come to your heart that you kind of like, okay, that's my go-to scripture from here on out?

Beth 4:48

It is for God so loved the world that He gave His only Sunday. It is because I can't even fathom. You know, my child was in pain, but I can't even imagine what God must have been. How do you have that much love that you send your son to save the world?

DeAnna 5:03

Can you imagine? You just can't imagine. Your story about your daughter and being healed, going through all of those things and not knowing what's going on. And then what did you do? You just that prayer mama. And you're like, I'm not, I'm gonna be that prayer mama, and I'm going to take it to the Lord because I believe that He's gonna heal my daughter.

Beth 5:21

Yes. I've not always been that way. Very early on, um, when I was younger, I had a really hard time. It took me a long time to get to where I even felt worthy of God. And I thought I was a good person for a long time, but being a good person don't get you into heaven. And I needed more. And so what is your church background? What church did you go to? Well, I actually grew up in a regular Baptist. That's where my parents were from. You know, my mom and dad took me to church, you know, and I'm grateful that they did. But as a child, you don't really understand sometimes. And I didn't come to Christ to be baptized until I was an adult. I wanted to be sure because I never felt worthy of God. Never felt worthy. It's not anything that God's like you are worthy. But as a woman, you know, you're insecure about a lot of things. When I moved to Minnefee County, I decided to try a different church and it was non-denominational, and I loved it. And then when I went to church and I I left it and stuff, and then there was things that happened, and I got very disappointed in the way things were going. And I'm like, this is not my church anymore. This is not the place I'm going.

DeAnna 6:28

And I was very hurt when I left. Do you feel like there was maybe some legalism that was going on or just some things that weren't biblical and maybe things that were more man-made type things? I think man-made doctrines, that's a better way of putting it. Yeah.

Beth 6:44

I think what it was for me is sometimes in church and you think you know people and everything, but sometimes they disappoint you. They disappoint you in church when you are a very spiritual person, your soul, your salvation, that's the most precious thing you've got. Right. So when you have that, and then you have people that you see are doing things more for themselves and not for what the Bible calls or not what they're teaching is. Yes. And you have conflict about that, and you have to stick with your own conviction.

DeAnna 7:18

Yeah, and it's a discernment that you're given. That God gives you that discernment and you're seeing, okay, this doesn't align with God's word. Correct. What they're doing doesn't align with God's word, and they could be in leadership of some kind, you know, being the shepherd of the church and they're leading them astray. I believe God's gonna give you that discernment to know the difference.

Beth 7:37

Absolutely. And I think a lot of it is if you're in charge of helping my soul and nourishing my soul, I hold you to a higher standard. Exactly.

DeAnna 7:47

Yes, I agree.

Beth 7:48

And when you let me down in that, then I have no choice but to leave because I have to do what's best for me. And I was so heartbroken when I left. I was pretty disappointed. And I have not found a church yet to call home. And I miss home. Yeah.

DeAnna 8:02

I you miss home. Do you feel like the church hurt that you felt? Did it make you hesitant to want to find another place to go?

Beth 8:11

It very much did because once you have a place that you call home, and then people let you down, and then you're so hurt because you become more guarded about your spirit, about your heart, about your love and your care for people. Because people disappoint you, but you still are human. Right, yes. And you still care for people, and I know that God is gonna make a way. I I know this, but in the same token, I'm still guarded about it. And so I've been to different places and they're welcoming, but it's just not felt like home.

DeAnna 8:45

Well, and I think that when we're hurt like that, we become guarded. I think in any way that we're hurt, if it's church or if it's in friendships or family or whatever, whatever it may be, that we become guarded in that. Yes. But what's important is when you are hurt in church, and you have to realize that you know you're not there to serve the people in the church. They're they're not gonna get you to heaven. That's a better way of putting it. Because people are human and they're gonna make mistakes. Yes. But as long as you know the difference, like, okay, well, I'm hurt, the people here hurt me. I know this is not who God is, I know this is not who Christ is. Right. So this is just not the people that I want to fellowship with because they're not being the body of Christ as they should be. Correct. So I'm going to find a place where I can find that body of Christ where they all come together and then I can be a part of something like that. So you're not walking around with this, okay, well, I don't ever want to go to church ever again.

Beth 9:37

I've been to different churches and stuff, and I'm trying to find a home. And I believe I will find a home when God says this is where you need to be.

DeAnna 9:44

You'll know that. You will walk in and it'll just be this is where I'm supposed to be. Like you're gonna know it in your heart, right, and in your mind, and in your spirit. I feel like, you know, when those all are connected and you know it, that's it. That's home.

Beth 9:58

Right. And I also feel like that since I've not found a church in the building since, right, but I have found a group of people that are family and they make me feel like family, and they're very God-oriented, faith-based. And so for me, it is church. Yes. But it's not in a building, but it doesn't have to be in a building to feel closer to God.

DeAnna 10:20

Right. I know the Bible tells us that we're to fellowship with other believers and that we're supposed to be in a church with one another, but I also feel like that God is anywhere. I mean, there's some that I've had church in my car, or I've gone to the grocery store or gone into a department store and I've heard something will just strike my spirit. Right. And you can hear like the craft store, and you can hear a song playing that I remember singing in choir, and I'm ready to like run the aisles in the craft store, right? I believe that you can meet Jesus anywhere. I believe that you can meet the Lord anywhere. You've met these groups of people that are fulfilling something that you need, but God will lead you to the right place that you're supposed to be, the right church to where you can get plugged in and to where the leadership of the church, the pastor, is anointed, and then he hears from God. He is obedient to God and he knows that he's responsible for these people as their leader. God will do that, he knows your heart. And sometimes it takes a little time, but I mean, I know that God will answer that prayer for you and he'll bring you to where you're supposed to be.

Beth 11:22

It does. It takes time, and I'm not the world's best on patience. And I've prayed, I've prayed and prayed about it because God, I I believe that God has a plan for me. I truly do. But I also think that sometimes I get my own way. It's just something that you have to work through. But the main thing is not to lose sight of God.

DeAnna 11:42

Right. And I think you've got the right mindset that, you know, okay, I've been church hurt and I'm guarded, but I'm not gonna allow that to take away from what I know right I need to be doing, where I'm out here looking for a place to be plugged in and go. Right. But in the meantime, God gives you this group of people who love you and care for you. And I've met some of them. Yes. And let me just tell you, all I've heard is Beth is amazing. Beth is wonderful. Beth says they say, but that's just how God is, and I feel like God just knows who we need.

Beth 12:13

Oh, absolutely. Then there's things that happen in your life, and you go and you experience things and you lose sight of God.

DeAnna 12:22

Yes, I know that very well.

Beth 12:24

Well, this is how this happened. So a few years ago, I got really, really sick. So I ended up in the hospital and I was in there a week and stuff, and then they didn't know what was wrong, and then it was like pancreatitis, gall platter, we gotta take this out, can't eat, all this rigma roar. I had two broken feet. Oh wow. Oh my all in the hospital all at one time. Oh my goodness. Yeah. Oh had to have surgery. Uh oh. Had had had all this going on, and I was very honestly, you know, it's human emotion and you are what you are. And I was so sick and so down that I didn't know if I would make it home to my children. So I had to make a call and tell my children that I love you, that I don't know if I'll be home, I don't know if I'll make it home or not. But I want you to know that God loves you and I do too. And that's a very hard thing to have to do. I cannot imagine having to do that. And um, you know, but God decided that He has work for me to do. Yes. So he he you know, I got to come home, so I spent over a year on full bedrust. Then I've made my way to, you know, I was in a wheelchair for a while, then a walker, then a cane. I can walk now some, praise God, but it's not pretty. I don't want pretty either. But I can do it, but I can do it. But I can do it. I'm very I'm very grateful that God showed me his mercy. Yes, and he allowed me to come home to my family and my friends. But when you are a person that is constantly on the go, constantly doing stuff, and you have all that taken away, it does something to a person. Yes, I believe that. I believe that. And then you know, you're on bed rest, you can't get up and do anything you want to do, you're lost.

DeAnna 14:20

When you go through something like that, it just does something to you, but you don't take things for granted. No anymore. No. Like you just you appreciate things so much more and see them differently than you did before.

Beth 14:31

Oh, very much so. You know, I'm not everybody's cup of tea. So now I'm you're my cup of tea. So so now I'm really not a lot of people's cup of tea because I know that at any moment you can be gone. Right. You can be gone in an instant. And I've learned it in a hard way that all I can do is trust in God's plan for me. That's it.

DeAnna 14:54

That's all you can do.

Beth 14:55

That it that's all I can do. But now I value time with my family.

DeAnna 15:01

Right.

Beth 15:01

I value time with my friends. I have the best neighbor ever. And her and I craft and do a little bit of this and that. Yeah. And you learn to enjoy the little moments.

DeAnna 15:12

Yes, the little bitty things. The little bitty things. Things that you wouldn't normally think. Okay. That's the one of the things like you see differently. Like that's a blessing.

Beth 15:21

And before I was all about petting before I got sick, everybody else in front of me. Right. Because I never wanted to be selfish or anything. But now I'm a little selfish.

DeAnna 15:32

Well, you have to take care of you. I mean, because you can't take care of anybody else if you can't take care of you. And you know, you need that. And I believe God wants you to have that as well. It's important for us to have that rest that we need and to have that self-care that we need. And it's not just for yourself, but for God and what purpose he has for you because he needs you to be like, girl, I need you to be all all there. So I've got some plans for you. So I need you to be well and I need you to take care of yourself. I got another level coming.

Beth 16:01

Right. And that's a very hard thing for me to uh to grass. That's the hardest thing I've had to deal with because, like I say, I am one of these people that like to be on the go and move and and just get things done like I am that way. I'm that person too, yes. But there is days that I hurt so bad and I'm in so much pain that I don't even get out of bed.

DeAnna 16:23

Mm-hmm.

Beth 16:24

Because I can't. In those moments, I just say, Lord, I know you got a plan. Today's, I guess you're giving me a day off to rest, you know. And then tomorrow I'll just pray I'll I'll do it better for you. Right. Right. Because that's all I want to do is help spread the gospel. That's all I want to do because now I value my time. And my time to me is precious. So I try not to waste it.

DeAnna 16:47

Right.

Beth 16:48

And before I would waste it. So now I rarely watch TV. The only time I do, which you will find this funny, is when we watch wrestling.

DeAnna 16:57

No, I actually grew up watching it and I loved it growing up as a child.

Beth 17:02

It was one of my favorite things I used to watch. Yes, it it is. It's so funny because it's our family thing. And to look at me, you're like, what? But it's our family thing to do. I mean, it's time that we can get together and watch something and have a good time. Oh, we eat and and just have a big old time. Just be together. Yes. And it's I I you know, I find it funny, but um, but we we do that. But you know, that's so important to spend those little moments because they can be gone at any time. And there's days now that I can't do stuff and I'm like, Lord, I'm having a day, I I'm having a day. And I just I don't know what to do. I'm uh I'm to the point of where I'm just like I I just can't do anything else.

DeAnna 17:47

Do you feel like you've gotten it from your family you've gotten support you've needed?

Beth 17:51

My family, my daughter's my husband, my son-in-law. Well, I don't say he's my son-in-law, he's my son. Son-in-love. Yes, son in love, but he's my son. Yeah. We have always gotten along and stuff. I have an amazing family, but they also had to realize and it affected their life too, that their mom's sick, their wife's sick. So it's changed their world also. Today, I can't drive all the way here by myself. I've not driven anywhere really in like two years. And that's hard for somebody that did all the driving. Right, because then you're dependent on someone else to take care of it. On someone, and listen, girl, that is not who I am.

DeAnna 18:31

I know that I know. Believe me, I'm with you right there. I that would be very hard to know that I was able to do this before. Right. But now I can't do it anymore. I want to do it myself. And I have such a hard time, like, okay, I'm gonna let somebody help me because I'm always like, let me help you, let me do it, let me do it. Yes. And sometimes I just have to like, okay, I'm gonna let you help me because I I've got the help and I'm gonna let you be better at it.

Beth 18:55

Yeah, not real good at it right now. Yeah, but I am getting better, and I've had to learn a new version of me. Exactly. That's a really good way of putting that. That is really good. Because I'm never gonna be the person that I was before. Because I'm not able to be that person anymore. It's a new version. And I'm I'm learning to be a new version of me. That's really good.

DeAnna 19:15

I like that.

Beth 19:16

Yeah, it's it's and it's just and you're you know, I'm still learning and everything. I've changed the way, you know, I don't really listen to any more secular music, and now it's all Christian music, because I value my relationship with God in a more intimate way.

DeAnna 19:32

Mm-hmm.

Beth 19:32

Because I didn't before I was faithful, you know, I did everything that I thought I needed to do. Right. Right? Yeah. The P's and Q's, as they say. Yeah. But now God has shown me mercy, and now I value that relationship a lot more than what I did. And it took me almost dying to get me there.

DeAnna 19:53

To get you there, yeah. Sometimes it takes sometimes you know we're stubborn.

Beth 19:59

Well, that's like I say, I'm stubborn. Girl, I am so stubborn. And God is like, this is the only way she's gonna listen to me. As if I give her attention this time. If I say, you know what, you've not obeyed your father when you should have. So now I'm gonna give you a hard lesson because he's being a good father. And I've he is, and I was too stubborn to listen. So he had to teach me a lesson.

DeAnna 20:24

He had to spank me a little bit as to say. So you would say that would be like some of the biggest lessons that God's taught you was when you were sick, and then God had to get your attention that way, which then it created this beautiful new version of yourself. Or was there like another lesson that he taught you in that the church hurt, or even when he gave you the dream for your daughter? Is there anything in those moments that God just gave you a lesson out of it?

Beth 20:50

Yeah. When I it's weird because now I talk to God all the time. He don't always listen because I think he's like Beth, I've got all these other people to worry about, not just you. But I think the most thing that I have come to realize is that people need love.

DeAnna 21:07

Yes.

Beth 21:08

People need love.

DeAnna 21:09

They do.

Beth 21:10

And we don't always give that. Sometimes we see people for what we see on them, but that's not who they are. We just see that shale. And he has learned me that I should take time to get to know people more, not just what's on the outside. Now, some people are like me, they're guarded. And it takes a while. I'm one of those people that it takes a while for me to get warmed up to you.

DeAnna 21:35

I don't think in our case it was that much.

Beth 21:37

It's not, girl, because we're just kind of experienced.

DeAnna 21:40

But it does. But I'm with you on that. I I'm with you. It's like I had to like get to know you first to see if, you know, or unless that unless the Holy Spirit's like you that discernment that's somebody you don't need to have in your life. Love them from a distance. Right. But I do have to like get warmed up sometimes to people to kind of or to you know, to see who they are to kind of like, I don't know, Lord, help me with that. And then there's just like those moments where I meet you and it's like, oh my gosh.

Beth 22:11

Okay. I'm the same way, but sometimes I and I hate to say it this way, but sometimes I see something, I'm like, uh maybe I should stay away from that. And then God's like, no, I've kept you here for a reason. Let's try this. Try this. It has made such a big impact on me because that's how I found, you know, through Evie, that's how I found Echo TV. And that's how I found the family of Gone.

DeAnna 22:40

Which let me just say the whole Echo TV family, because we've had just a little bit of getting to know some just a few of them. But just from what I've seen, because you know we're we are doing this podcast from Kentucky.

Beth 22:54

Right.

DeAnna 22:54

Uh we recently came to the Echo TV premiere of Gone. Right. Which let me tell you, everyone, you need to watch this. It's amazing.

Beth 23:03

It's amazing.

DeAnna 23:04

Um but just to meet some of the people that you know more of the people because we've met just a few of them everybody is amazing. And everybody it's just there there's just such a sweet spirit about being around everyone. And they're so welcoming and kind and I didn't get to meet everyone but the people that my husband and I met it was they were just awesome awesome people. I know you've known Eevee um for a long time and that's how you got connected with Echo TV. Yeah yes Eevee not Eevee.

Beth 23:32

Let's just talk look we can just do like a whole session on Eevee. Listen she is she is by far amazing and she's one of them people that she is so sincere and so so faithful to God and faithful to people. She truly is she really is yes that you just don't say no it it happens before no you cannot tell her no she doesn't even have to ask she does how to do it for her. Yeah she you don't you don't she doesn't even ask she just says I need you to do this and I'm like okay you know and that's how I got in involved in Echo and you know I met Dave the president of Echo and the director of Gone and from the moment him and I talked he has made me feel like part of him. I'm part of their family. And for somebody that struggled to that is still struggling to get to know to feel like a place you belong they have been a godsend. Because you know when you're sick and you can't do anything and I've finally gotten to where I can move a little bit and then Evie said let me tell you about Echo. So it was God through Evie that said you know what you're used to doing all this stuff. But but it is it's like you're used to doing this, this this this and this but now you're just kind of in a stalemate and you don't know what to do and you don't know what it but I'm gonna show you. And he's given me a purpose to do stuff that feels more like stuff for me.

DeAnna 25:06

He's created that for you like that's part of your purpose. So he's he's created that just for you.

Beth 25:11

It it is because I feel like I can help people and I also there's days you know like I can say I can do anything. But then I don't have to because Deba Khan say hey Beth can you do this whatever and I say well I don't feel like it today. Like I just don't feel good today. And it's like all right there's tomorrow. It's okay.

DeAnna 25:30

Isn't that amazing?

Beth 25:31

That's awesome it's amazing because they accept me for me.

DeAnna 25:36

Yes. And you don't always get that you don't always find that we don't it's very it's few and far between that you do.

Beth 25:42

It is and God sent them when I needed them most. That's that's his timing as well it was his plan the whole time yeah you know I was quiet enough to listen because I'm not always quiet not always quiet to listen but I was quiet enough to listen and he sent them when I was really low and I was struggling to find a purpose to struggling to find a new me because I had lost me. Yeah and I've always had faith that in God's plan for me I've never said God why did you let this happen to me I I'm just one of them people that always trust us that God's gonna God's got a plan for me. I'm not patient with it and I want God to hurry up sometimes but I still always trust that he's got a plan for me.

DeAnna 26:27

Yeah and even when you don't understand what's happening or Lord I prayed for this but this didn't happen and what I wanted to happen didn't happen and I don't understand and I know you can bring understanding and I know sometimes God won't bring understanding he'll just like you know he'll either reveal it to you either reveal or conceal right yes and so you have to just trust in him and trust in his plan and my verse and and it's my verse that I go to uh is Proverbs 35 and 6 trust in the Lord with all thine heartly not on thine own understanding but in all your ways acknowledge him and you'll make your path straight that has been like my my verse my go-to verse it's it speaks everything that I need in it and it's just always been such a comfort to me because there has been things I don't understand and God has said just trust my plan like you were saying just trust me and trust my plan.

Beth 27:15

And it's hard to do sometimes. It is hard. It's very hard it's very hard absolutely and sometimes you know you don't have patience and you're like I just need you to I I just need it to happen. I just need it to happen. But if you truly believe in God's plan and you have faith you have to have faith when things are bad you know you have to have it when it's bad.

DeAnna 27:36

I think that's the only way you can get through it. Yes because I don't know how people make it in the world without a relationship with God. I don't know how they do it. And then in the things that you and I have experienced in our walks that you know everything that you've been through that God has lavished his love on you because you stopped and you said well he's gonna lavish his love on you anyway. Right. But you stopped and you listened and when we stop and listen to what God has to tell us I mean it's it's just like wow the Lord says be still and know that I'm God. Sometimes we just need to be still and sometimes we do. And when you do that look at what God does oh I know he lavishes you so lovingly and you appreciate it more than he does. Because he he brought you to this family.

Beth 28:22

He brought me he knew you needed them he knew I needed and they needed you and listen I didn't know anything of you like they're you're just like this they do they love you so much. And it's it's funny because I'm not really a hugger like really I'm not if it like I say it takes a while or I have to feel like all right I need a hug right and it's the funniest thing because Evie know Evie knows this about me and she's like and then I'm like Evie what have you done to me because here are all these people and I hug them and and all this stuff and I'm just not that way. And it's gone right there.

DeAnna 28:58

And it is I'm like Lord God is making me hug because she's not everybody's a hugger but I'm I'm a hugger but I'm like one of those do I go in for a hug or just kind of like this like a hat on the back kind of like the side or something like that. I try to be more mindful of people's bubbles I'm not gonna I'm not gonna kind of come near your bubble but I do feel like sometimes people need to be hugged. Oh very much so because a lot of times they probably you know you don't know what they're going through and sometimes if you just hug somebody it just makes all the difference.

Beth 29:31

Oh it you know it it does and like I say there's times that I just am not I'm not good and I don't feel good and and stuff and sometimes they I have these wonderful people and they just come and I know that it's God saying you know what she's not doing good today. She needs a text she needs a call yeah she needs a hug and there's been times that I get a hug from all these wonderful ladies and stuff and I just sob and they're like it's okay and I'm like I don't even know why I'm crying for you know and they're like but it's okay yeah it's yeah absolutely and they are but what you tell the listeners out there what wisdom what words of wisdom would you like to leave with them? If I could tell you anything is that no matter what's happening in your life and you think there's no faith there's nothing you can do and you don't know where your faith's gone you need to have hope have hope and let God work in your life. Just pray about it and he'll do it. Just be faithful and that when you think that you're not a lot just know that you are you are a lot and you're you may not feel it yourself but you are to other people. Yes and know that people love you even strangers.

DeAnna 30:49

Yes well Beth I just want you to know how much I've enjoyed this today. I've enjoyed listening to your story it's an amazing story. I just see such a beauty in you that God has put there I see that I see such a strong woman in you God has been your anchor and without God I I couldn't survive. I believe that if it wasn't for God and his faithfulness in your life and his strength that he's given you everything that you've encountered and everything that you've been through I believe God has such a purpose for your life and I know he's not finished. He's already working especially with the whole Echo TV family and what your position is there and what you give to them. I believe that God has got such a plan for your life. I believe he's going to take you to the next level because I know this is probably something out of your comfort zone.

Beth 31:35

It is very much out of my comfort zone but I'm a firm believer that God puts things in your path sometimes and people in your path it's funny because I say you know I'm two different peoples. There's the human side of me right that can't sometimes can't even put the shirt on, can't get out the bed and has trouble walking all the time and hurt all the time there's that person. But then there's the soul person inside of me right who is burning fire for Jesus. That's what it's all about. And I laugh and tell Evie all the time it carries a big sword.

DeAnna 32:09

And there's a power in your testimony and it breaks strongholds. Yes and it breaks chains. That's why we give our testimony that's what we're supposed to do and I am so thankful to listen to your story today. I'm thankful that God's put you in my life oh absolutely and I'm excited to see what God's gonna do. And I want to ask do you mind praying for our listeners today? I do not I would do it.

Beth 32:32

Lord we came to you today as your faithful servants we know that the devil tries his best to affect our lives but Lord we know that you are a great healer you're a great comforter and you have us by your hands and Lord I ask you to touch every woman out there who is listening yes who is struggling yes Lord who needs who needs you Lord yes Lord give them hope show them Lord that they can come to you they can be a light to spread the word of your son yes and Lord no matter what they're going through give them the strength to carry on and Lord let everything we do be for the glory of you be for the glory of your son in sweet Jesus' name I pray.

DeAnna 33:17

Amen thank you again so much Beth for being here and listeners thank you so much for joining us today and until next time we just say God bless God bless everyone